It never fails something big comes up or a holiday is approching and my immune system can guess thats the time to get sick!! I started sneezing pretty much around 11ish and now im full blown cough and gunk..im praying this is just a nasty case of allergies because we havent cleaned our our hepa's in a week and since im allergic to all 4 cats thats kinda a big thing to keep those things clean. You would think i would have a dog by now and no cats right?? yeah not quite. Just 4 cats who have their own special attitudes. So im up at 1amish sitting on my best friend my heating pad i just couldnt tolerate the cramps mother nature is granting me with right now anymore and i know the driver (dh) must get his sleep since i can sleep while he's driving i figure better me be up at this hour then him. So heating pad and blanket wrapped around me im in the cold ass office typing away trying not to go on a google fest and read about rates and percentages of IVF stuff...really trying not to stress myself out..what works for others doesnt work for everyone..i have to keep telling myself that. Ive been so wrapped up in getting orders for hubby to be able to attend the entire trip and the car getting inspected and the oil changed..that i forgot what i was doing and now im being riddled with nervousness and worry this isnt going to work. Its like deep down inside i know this is going to work, but somewhere in me this doubt just likes to creep up and tell me its wrong to do this. I know i didnt lose all the weight i wanted to lose before we cycled but when we were offered the spot in this cycle i jumped at it. My mom says she knows woman who are much bigger than i am who have gotten pg and had no risks. So i got to throw that little voice out. Im so nervous about the meds i took a look at the needles invovled in the latter meds and they scare me to death..yeah me!! The one with 3 tats and i have had more piercings that tats!! I used to be deathly afraid of needles growing up and when i got super sick in HS i had IV's all the time and blood taken all the time so i got used to them when i turned 18 i got my tounge and nosed pierced and my first tat all on the same night and im one that can sit through those tats without a single ow. Ill have to post a pic of them sometime. But these needles especially for the PIO i think it is just scare me! I love DH so much but he's not the medical one in the family i am! I hope he takes notes in shot class or else im walking to the Naval Hospital everyday to have a nurse do them for me. We are actually staying on the Hospitals Base so that wouldnt be that far to walk. Im just really getting nervous and i bet you a year from now im going to laugh at myself for this. I wish my loratab would kick in already id like to go back and enjoy my last night in my bed for 3 weeks. Im not looking forward to 8 hours in the car tommrow but like i said ill sleep most of it =) im a brat like that. Than its home sweet hotel for 3 weeks im sure ill see every museam possible in DC and the area before im home. Anyways wish me luck!! ill be updating from DC!!
Cristye
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Im a navy wife, a middleground republican, a california native stuck in the south and mommy to my 4 fur baby pain in the butt kitties..I have OCD sometimes and cry over Halmark commericals!! I tend to attract Drama but i dont mean too..im a true friend if your a true friend to me. Ive been married for almost 4 years and wouldn't trade my husband for all the money in the world. This is the beggining of our Journey into..IVF and hopefully into parenthood.
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- Im a Southern California girl stuck in South Carolina hell right now, I have just over a year left here until we can hopefully get back to the west coast, my Hubby is in the US Navy and a Texas Native. We have 4 furbabies all cats Scarlett, Bevo, Rudy and JJ. In 2004 after a few months of pain we found out i had a blocked fallopian tube it was removed that summer but with having one left we were told our chances of concieving was great! I was told I had very minumal endometriosis but nothing to worry about nothing else was explained to me. Fastforward to 2007 and 2 miscarriages later we found out my other tube had become blocked and needed to be removed asap because it was feared to be infected. The dr did a biospy and dx me with endometriosis which explained my chronic pain. So now here i am with no fallopian tubes, PCOS and Endometriosis..Im just trying to get by day by day awaiting our turn on the IVF list for Walter Reed.This is my life, sometimes I wonder why ive been cursed but then i look at the many blessing I have had like my husband and family and friends.
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